They say that pregnancy is beautiful and one of the most glorious phases in a women’s life. After having two kids and one on the way, I can honestly say that pregnancy….SUCKS! I absolutely hate being pregnant and have never felt beautiful nor amazing during any of my pregnancies. If you are looking for a blog that talks about the amazing moments of pregnancy, I’m sorry this story is not for you. I’m here to tell you how REAL pregnancy can get.
It’s been 19 weeks. 19 weeks of nausea; 19 weeks of vomiting; 19 weeks of pain, exhaustion and just being miserable day in and day out. With all three pregnancies I suffered from Hyperemesis Gravidum, which is severe nausea and vomiting, but with this pregnancy my Hyperemesis hit an all time high. I couldn’t keep anything down. Instead of gaining weight I was loosing weight. I could barely stand to take a shower. I didn’t even have the energy to do my hair or makeup and everyone knows how much I love to do my makeup. All of my normal daily activities were a struggle for me and I just couldn’t get myself together. Everyday I felt like I’m living a nightmare that I just couldn’t wake up from. I know everyone says I should be happy and that this is a great time in my life, but I honestly was starting to regret getting pregnant. I spent days in the hospital on constant fluids because none of the medication prescribed by my doctors would work. I wasn’t able to spend much time with my husband or even see my kids. I missed my daughter’s very first recital at school and that broke my heart. I was so mad I couldn’t shake this sickness and started becoming depressed. It was lonely being in the hospital without my family and I quickly became frustrated with all the restrictions they had me on. But there was light at the end of the tunnel. No, my sickness didn’t go away, but I was finally hydrated enough to have a PIC line* inserted which gave me the capability to receive my fluids in the convenience of my own home.
I still was stuck in the house all day every day because I had to receive fluids around the clock, but hey at least I could throw up in my own toilet and lay in my own bed. I have a nurse that comes and visits me once a week to check on me and clean around my line that was inserted in my arm. She’s been visiting me so much I’m starting to feel like she’s one of my close friends. Hey, gives me someone to talk to since I’m out of work. You never realize how much you need adult interaction throughout the day to keep your sanity until your stuck in the house all day looking at constant reruns of Law and Order or scandals and love stories on Lifetime (which both are my favorite by the way). But no matter how hard and frustrating it is, I just keep pushing. Constantly chasing after a 4 year old and a 1 year old while having HG is exhausting, but realizing that I’m one day closer to this all being over puts a smile on my face. Plus the help from my amazing husband and family makes it a little easier as well.
I know I know, you’re probably sitting there thinking if I went through this with my first two pregnancies why would I get pregnant again. It’s simple, because the outcome is SO rewarding and makes it all worth it. I love my girls, and I couldn’t picture life without them. My husband and I wanted to grow our family with one more little one, in hopes of it being a boy, and the only way to make that happen is to go through these rough, hard 9 months. Trust me, if I were rich I would hire a surrogate. Shoot, maybe if I had a surrogate I would have 2 more kids, but because of the pain and trouble this last one caused, after this I am closing up shop, PERMANENTLY!
I’m sure there are some of you that may be reading this thinking I will have tips and tricks on how to deal with hyperemesis, because I went through it three times, but the truth is there are no tricks or remedies that get rid of this condition. You can drink all the ginger tea you want, constantly wear sea bands or pop pregnancy candy around the clock, but nothing, I repeat nothing will cure your hyperemesis. Sure there are medications your doctor can prescribe that may help ease some of the nausea and vomiting but nothing will make it go away. It’s just one of those things that have to run its course.
What I can suggest is that you try to relax as much as possible. HG takes a lot out of you so don’t feel bad if you are constantly tired or in the bed all day.
Carry around a barf bag in case you wont be able to make it to a toilet. I had plastic cups, bowls and even barf bags from the hospital stored in my car for these sudden mishaps.
Try not to beat yourself up if you’re letting things go around the house. It’s extremely hard to stand for long periods of time in your condition let alone clean.
Don’t be afraid to ask for help, I repeat don’t be afraid to ask for help. This was something that took me a while to be comfortable to do. I’m so used to doing everything myself and I hate feeling like I’m bothering people so for a while I never wanted to ask anyone for help. But with HG you need the extra help, especially if you already have little ones running around.
And most importantly stay hydrated. I know this sounds impossible because everything you intake comes right back up, but just keep trying to drink some water. If you are constantly throwing your water up and nothing is staying down, don’t be afraid to talk to your doctor about maybe going to the hospital and get an IV with fluids. The last thing you want is to get dehydrated while you’re pregnant.
To all my HG moms, just know there is a small amount of women that deal with hyperemesis throughout their entire pregnancy, but the good thing is the majority begin to feel better half way into their second trimester. So just keep reminding yourself there is light at the end of the tunnel and everything will get better. And most importantly, think about that special little someone you will get to meet when this is all over. Remember, You are Amazing, You are Strong and You are Brave. You Got This!